take me, break me & start again

yet another week has gone by
just like that
i dont like ending my week,
feeling as if i've done nothing
people may think i'm crazy to
be saying this, after staying up
baking, washing up, playing host

i did enjoy myself,
i really did :)
we didnt have cell, came over
here to make the food needed
for, today
abby, joy, xuanyi were working
on the eggs
many others were buttering bread,
trying to help as much as they could
the younger ones helped with the
banner, letterings & all
we surprised abby with a little cake
with a green gummy bear :)
i must say that everything was
really well done :)
a job well done, skone !

it was a fulfilling two days
but i think i forgot about myself
through the two days
i left everything, to God
relying on him for the strength
being able to finish baking
everything only to realise that
it wasnt enough?
everything disppeared soon
after the first service
but everything was really well done :)

i had a nice time with myself
staying up to continue baking,
washing up the dishes,
making sure the kitchen was no
longer oily & dirty
haha but it was a good time
ask anyone, i was really happy :)
now that jireh's over,
there is a sense of accomplishment
not on our part, but because God
brought us through

geraldine & joy are over here
rolling in my bed, laughing
like hyenas :)
they're really amusing but
i think i'm really tired out ?
that i'm feeling so, unsporty
i cant laugh along with them
& i dont feel like playing host
i know its dumb but maybe i'm
just purely, tired
even my body isnt supporting me
when i really need it to ?
i just feel so, unwell
in a sense that i cant get things
done, i cant even start

i can & i will get things started
i've got work to finish,
i know i'll be able to
maybe i should just get started
forget about this or that
just head straight down to the books
& i dont think i'll make it to
somewhere i really want to be at
i really want to be there but,
i really doubt i can go
sorry that i cant be there :(
its been nice being able to
actually have the chance to talk
to people & spending time with them :)
SKONE, my dearest cell
my heart smiles, our light shines

trili, cheer up okay ?
i dont know how you're feeling
but i really hope you'll be okay
no, you will be okay

laughing's always easy,
but i cant just laugh it off